These last few days I’ve been hunkered down, dealing with a nasty virus. It was awful.
I’m thankful that she fared better than me. Another reason to love breast feeding. She gained antibodies to fend off the worse of it. Mind you my milk has suffered a bit do to the lack of eating. And the lovely few pounds I had gained back. Sigh were flushed down the toilet.
It really was the hardest few days. I’ve never looked more forward to bedtime in all my life. At least then I could snuggle with her. Roll her over to feed and still somewhat sleep. Mind you that is all I wanted to do. Curl in a ball and sleep.
When you are a single mum, there are no sick days. Somehow you have to find a way to push through. I don’t know how I did it. I did feel like a bad mum. I couldn’t play with her as much as I should have. It was painful to pick her up.
There was no lack of of me trying to find someone to come and give me a hand. But everyone works, or has their own wee ones. And I didn’t want them to get sick.
I was thankful for my local restaurant. The manager brought me toast the last few mornings. Good peeps!
But I could have killed for someone just to come over for an hour. Entertain her so I could curl up on the couch and wallow.
Does it get easier?
What ways to you find to cope?
Tiny steps, big journey
Rambling from a single first time mum..
Tiny steps, big journey 
It’s so hard to do anything when you’re sick!!! If you have friends or family, that is a time to utilize their offers for help. Offer to do something for them in return. Any rest you can get makes a big difference. It’s hard to ask for help, but its better in the end.
Child rearing is hard and doing it solo means no breaks unless you have help. It helps to have support emotionally, so make sure you surround yourself with positive people. Good books to feed your head, good friends and family to feed your heart. Good luck to you! All your hard work is worth it!!
Marz
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Don’t ever forget about ‘Grandma Rose’ 🙂